I Need Jesus (Day 5)

Good evenin’, Readers! Today’s Holy Wednesday. What it’s like to have your own Judases (enemies)? I am writing my broken story about how I feel like Jesus.

Jesus was betrayed by Judas Iscariot and was sold to evil Pharisees. I feel the same thing as Jesus. When I was a teenager, I encountered Jesus. Afterward I was struggling with my non-believing parents for nearly fifteen years until I finally free from their cult belief. However, in the mid of February 2020, I was betrayed by the hypocrite so-called Christians in Free Will Baptist church and made my sister to buy me off to the wrong state, Florida along with my unborn son (he’s now two). My son was supposed to born in my home state New York, but sadly he wasn’t. He and I were almost murdered in the wrong children’s hospital. So, I felt betrayed and still do. I’m having a long grudge on these so-called Christians that does not apply the Bible. The Bible tell them not to murder anyone but they seem to think that they can do for the Lord just because I have a horrible sin with my son’s father does not mean I don’t need Jesus. I NEED Jesus! I let Him punish me because that is His job, not that church. The church has no place for punishing the sinning fellowship members. I had told one of my enemies that my family was not a Christian and I wouldn’t need to live with them. As I did not have time with them. I was busy with the Lord Jesus. But sadly, I live with them again with my child. And I… I am treating like live-in maid. I try to get away from them and get an apartment on my own but my situation is still a very sad. I’m stuck. I need Jesus.

I read Psalm 41:7-13. O, yeah, I am like David that still have my enemies and, like Jesus, my close friends whom I trusted turned against me. I am not worried, I am confident in the ultimate triumph of good over evil. I know that God is pleased with me. Jesus is my highest priority. He is my deepest need. Jesus is something I try and squeeze into my busy schedule. But I am in my relationship with Him as my number one priority. I found some time with Him. It’s not easy especially when my body is feeble. As I live with family and be their “maid”, a free charge of cleaning service. This is not fair for my life. My son and I need to go.

With that being said, do not let anyone in your family stop you from serving the Lord. And when you need to go to church, be very careful with which is the right one. I hope you had a great Holy Wednesday. Light and love 💖❤️, Loi

Fig Tree (Day 4)

Good r’sin’, Readers! Today is Holy Tuesday. I want to discuss about religion. I read the parable about the dead religion. As before Jesus was died on the cross, He told the people that He would destroy the temple and the next three days He would rebuild the new temple. The religious leaders were very angry at Jesus and wanted to kill Him. So this story is based on the Bible. And I also read today Holy Tuesday devotional about the fig tree.

Here is my poem from last year. It is all about my experience with the religion that trashes me to the dangerous area. Read below:

Fig Tree poem by Live Loi
NorthPoint? Are they north?
Hm. Ay, they are like a fig tree that produces no fruits 
They are fruitless 
And look, what they did to me was evil 
I am confident that one day the evil will not prevail 
The devil who tried to reach me, sorry, I’m not able to avail 

Cos I want peace 
Yes, I want peace 

I don’t need a fig tree surrounding me
As I am done with hypocrisy in so-called north 
I’m here in south next to a fig tree 
It’s like hell
Thanking to NorthPoint that treats me different 
They think that I’m south 
Really, they are south
In no difference would they call them NorthPoint 

North-Point 
North-Point is pointing to my sweet old friend who they think he’s a predator to my baby’s daddy 
Yes, North-Point is not a place to gossip 
But truthfully they do pointing at one another 
They have mental victims 
And once I see the toxic growing in that fig tree, GAME OVER 
Don’t lure me to south 
But thank you, NorthPoint for the hazard and that for making my siblings to kick my ass to south 

South, here I come 
I’m here in south, yeah, yeah

This, my poem is the truth and it needs to be left out for spiritual safety and for making the new one. As I left Freewill Baptist Church and moved to new Anglican Church. I am satisfied with my current belief and gain multitude of blessings. In the beautiful name of Jesus. I hope you have a blessed Holy Tuesday. Light and love 💖❤️, Loi

Forgiveness and Love (Day 3)

Good r’sin, Readers! How was your Palm Sunday? Mine was great and excited about studying Jesus riding His donkey to Jerusalem with a lot of people waving their palms at Him. The celebration of what He has done for us. Today is Holy Monday. I need to discuss with you about forgiveness and love.

I read the news about Mehmet Ali Ağca attempting to assassin Pope John Paul II. Four bullets hit him – two of them lodging in his lower intestine, the others hitting his left hand and right arm. This incident occurred in May 1981 left Pope severely wounded and with much blood loss – his health changed. In July 1981, the perpetrator, Mehmet Ali Ağca, was sentenced to life imprisonment. Pope John Paul II asked people to pray for Ağca, whom he have sincerely forgiven. Two years later, he was to take the hand of Ali Ağca, then in prison, and quietly tell him that he had forgiven him for what he had done (even though his would-be killer had no remorse for what he did to Pope). Pope developed a friendship over the years, meeting Ağca’s mother in 1987 and his brother a decade later. In June 2000 Ağca was pardoned by the Italian President at the Pope’s request. In February 2005 Ağca sent a letter to the Pope wishing him well. When the Pope died on April 2, 2005, Ağca’s brother, Adrian, gave an interview saying that Ağca and his entire family were grieving and that the Pope had been a great friend to them. Pope John Paul II’s response of forgiveness and love is beautiful. But to me, I found it difficult for me to forgive the killers and even my enemies who are merely being my killers. They allowed me to be hostage and killed in the wrong state. I’m held a long grudge on these evil people. God, how can I let go of my trauma when them so-called Christian people trying to kill me for the Lord? I already know that God does not need their help. As He is taking care of me.

I read Luke 9:48. And that verse applies my situation. I was in my former church when I was pregnant with my only child, I thought it welcomed everyone. But then they started to unwelcome the father of my child and treated me like a garbage. I’m really piss off at them and then myself. Why did I not really know that they practice Arminian denomination and the hypocrite Puritanism? Oh, my Goodness! I was idiot for trusting them. Luckily, thank the Lord for the salvation! I was shedding my tears with joy when I was almost murdered in the wrong children’s hospital with my son. Suddenly the Lord rescued us! Thanks Him for being there for us!

I now learned my spiritual lesson is whichever path I choose. Jesus calls us Christ-Followers to welcome people regardless of what they can do for us. How we welcome people really matters. I will never go to the church that does not welcome people. Because of welcome people is beautiful and the sign of love for everyone. The right church that have a profound understanding that in welcoming people, they welcome Jesus. And in welcoming Jesus, they welcome the One who sent Him. Although I should not be surprised at whoever not wanting to welcome me. As Jesus was not always welcome. My immediate response to not being welcomed in my hometown is I did confess to seek revenge. But I was afraid of being locked up and so I immediately dropped out and allowed the Lord to take care of these cruel evil Buffalo people. I carry my cross and that show me what it means to love my enemies and forgive them.

With that being said, revenge is not the answer. As we are the citizens of the world state that does a duty to prevent crime and bring wrongdoers to justice. It is not easy for us residents to hold this tension, but an attitude of love requires that we do. We should always show love and justice, not retaliation or revenge. In every situation, we need to show love to people who does wrong to us and pray for them. I hope you have a good Holy Monday. With light and love 💖❤️, Loi

What is Mine? (Day 2)

Good evening’, Readers! Today’s Palm Sunday. It is the celebration of Jesus entering Jerusalem. Hosanna! Hosanna! I watched my church online sermon. And it was exciting to learn about Jesus riding His donkey to Jerusalem. I am ready to share the today’s gospel Matthew 27:11-54 with the lost souls. A few weeks ago, I emailed my lost soul friend about accepting Jesus as a Savior and since she has not answered me. Hmm. It is a long time no hearing from her. The last time we talked together was in 2012. I don’t know what her life is like. I am wondering if she is all right. I tried to google her, and it seems like she had moved to a new home. New contact information but no email and no phone number. I knew her. She is a very private person. She does not feel comfortable with posting a picture of herself in public. Okay, I got her. I am still waiting to hear from her. She knows nothing is the aim for perfection. As we are all human. But her belief requires the members to be perfect. Isn’t what God want? What is my belief?

Jesus wants me to be full of joy. He wants me to experience joy. It is a joy to know the Wisdom. As I read the book of Proverbs. Do you want to know where does this joy comes from? This joy come from number one, God’s presence. Number two, relationships with other people. And number three, God’s creation. Joy is mine as well as it is yours. 

Jesus is my joy. As well as He is your joy, too. He set His supreme example of love for you and for me. Even the secular world often recognizes our action of love for the people. Jesus loves you and me. He cares about our physical needs. We pray for what we need. And when we get what we have. It is a privilege to have what is mine, and what is yours.

And as of today, the cross is a symbol of hope. As we carry our cross through our faith in Christ. And we remain in our prayers. Jesus is the way of life.

Our love for Jesus and for others. We take up our cross daily and follow Him. I love Jesus and my effort to love people, I am going to need to email my lost soul friend one more time. I pray for her answer. I also want everyone to know about Jesus, too. How about you? Do you believe in Jesus? If yes, do you share the gospel with the world? You will have an amazing inheritance in heaven. It is God’s promise for you.  

What is mine is the joy to have as well as what is yours is the joy for you to have. And you have a blessed Palm Sunday. 🌱🤍 Light and love 💖❤️, Loi

Follow Jesus Poem (Day 1)

Good evenin’, Readers! It’s April! And soon Easter! It will be an exciting month! Do you know who you follow? When you are on social media like Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram, you see a world where you follow other people. Just like what is their passion? You want to know all about them, right? Their passions are rather, cooking, soulmate community, sports, fashions, or whatever their passion is. Nothing wrong with that. It is natural for you to follow whoever you want. Because of since you admire what passion that fit you. It is fun to see the photos, videos and quotes they posted. But who is the Top of you following? Let’s focus on who to follow.

This month is the main focus on celebrating the risen Jesus. Think about Him. He told His disciples many times, “Follow me.” Jesus has the largest number of followers. About 2.4 billion people in the world today are following Jesus. They are Christ-Followers. They want to be with Him, to know Him, to be like Him and to do everything that Jesus asks them to do. 

Here is my poem about following Jesus. The name of it is “Follow Jesus.” Let read it: 

Do you believe in Christ Jesus? I do 
I do believe in Christ Jesus  
I do not believe in Pharisees 
Do not believe in the falsehood  
Staying angry with the liars in falsehood
  
 But following Jesus does bring you peace  
And when you pray, your anger will wither away  
And that makes your bright day  

 Sometimes you do not feel like following Jesus  
Because you are in the world where it has a bad impact  
Do not let them influence you  
You do want to believe in Christ Jesus, I do, too 

 Be willing to disciple the ones who need Jesus  
By sharing the gospel  
Work but rest on Sabbath Day  
And serve the Lord, not the world  
 
Do not play the game with God’s people  
But show love to one another  
And respect them  

 When Jesus walked in the wilderness for 40 days, 
He resisted the temptation of Satan 
Do not let Satan tempt you  
Choose to follow Jesus  
Yea, follow Jesus

What do you think of this poem? It is beautiful to follow Jesus because of what He has done for you and for all of us. We thank Him for dying for us and for forgiving our sins. Thus, follow Jesus. And may April be your consideration for the Risen Jesus, and happy first Saturday of that new month. Light and love 💖❤️, Loi

Keep Rising For the Christ

Good r’sin’, Readers! How was your week? My week was fine and busy. Soon Easter, I’m keeping cleaning and cleaning. That’s the custom, but everyday clean. Today I read devotional about how to overcome the fears. Remind me of one of my enemies. She is a intimidated woman and also a mother of her four kids. I’m not copying her stupid way. I follow God’s way. Trusting Him that He will deliver and save us from the enemies. She knows that she is supposed to fear God and not be frightened of anyone or anything else. Unfortunately she still is and how hypocrisy she is. That I don’t want to go near her and I pray God that when I see her, God will deliver and save me from her.

April is coming up tomorrow. So, what I plan for that new month is The Rising Children of God 30 days devotional. It will be all about keeping rising for the Christ. Starting with tomorrow first day of blog post…

I honestly do experience fear. As I have anxiety and panic attacks. I try to suppress and deny them but, I know God. I should fear Him and trust Him that He will deliver and save me. But right now I has realized how much of human life is spent in anxiety and fear. Life is short to feel afraid of anyone and anything else. Our lives are in the world where there are money that we concern. And the greedy people that we fear about. I was afraid of my former landlord who he did trashed me and my stuff to the street and losing all of my possessions and memories. And even worse fear is my son and I were almost murdered in the wrong children’s hospital. He took my hometown away from us. I’m still mad at him and still hoping that he gets deportation to his home nation, Cuba. But I do my best to not to hope that as I allow the Lord to take care of him. I am particularly concerned about the suffering that I see around me and in my own life. I cannot understand why God allow it. I keep praying that hope things will come to settle down.

In my desperation, it is healthy for me to voice my concern, my confusion and my grievance to God. God understands my circumstances – Jesus went through the worst of it for me and for us.

In during the horrific year of 2020, COVID- 19 epidemic occurred that when it comes like the unexpected storm, I was afraid and mad at losing myself in my hometown. I would have been staying in my first apartment for safety but my former landlord was luckily evicted me before that epidemic happened. If this happened in 2019, he would require to not to evict me. As he has to follow the law. But sadly man! He was so lucky to evict me before the new law about eviction in during COVID-19 epidemic. But let’s not worry about him. I have faith that one day he will see of what will happen in the future. I stay rising in the name of Jesus.

With that being said, keep rising for the Christ. Trust God that He will deliver and save you from the Devil. Have a great weekend! Light and love 💖❤️, Loi

Generosity

Good evenin’, Readers! How was your Wednesday? Mine was busy and tired. I took some long nap. Okay, today’s I want to discuss about generosity. Generosity is a beautiful trait. I love and admire generosity. Do you see anyone who do generosity? I do. Do you think God is generous? Mean? God is generous. His generosity is seen in the world. For example, His follower gives food to the poor people. Psalm 36:8 is a beautiful delightful scripture to read! God is so generous to you mean you also need to be generous.

Read Psalm 36:1-12. It’s beautiful and delightful to read! David pictures God as a rich and generous to give indiscriminately to all people.

I read Numbers 13:26-14:45. God is so generous to His people. He had provided them with a land flowing with milk and honey. Joshua and Caleb reported that the land they passed through and explored were exceedingly good.

God’s generosity is wonderful. If you want to enjoy all God’s generosity, you can take possession, believe His promises, watch for His guidance and follow Him passionately.

Enjoy all the good things God has for you. He is generous and you have a good night. Light and love 💖❤️, Loi

My Savior

Good mornin’, Readers! How was your weekend? Mine was good. I want to give you the beautiful gift of devotional with you all. Since I have encountered Jesus, I see people in the world are looking for a savior. Lecrae is a Christian rapper. He speaks for many of us when he says, “I’m not a Christian because I’m strong and have it all together. I’m a Christian because I’m weak and admit I need a savior.” The truth of Christianity is that in Jesus you do need a Savior. What would you respond to this Good News?

When you try to find a true savior, I pray for your soul to be guided by Christ. I feel lost in the world and I only call out to God for help. As Nicky Gumbel says, “Life is a battle. If we fly God’s flag, there are bound to be those who will be out to get us.” I read David prays in Psalms 35:1-10 that God would contend with those who contend against him. I am like him that I pray for people to need to stop contending with me. As I am sensitive with that. But I understand that it’s God’s plan for my life. I keep faith in Jesus through the battles of my life. When you are feeling hurt by the enemy, it is easy for you to feel that it must be your fault. But twice David repeats that his enemies desire to trap him is without cause. Sometimes you may face the trial not because you are doing something wrong but because you are doing something right. David prayed for God to rescue him. I stay strong when I face the verbal abuses and bullies. God is my Savior who rescues me and my son.

Jesus is the Savior of the world. I am excited about the beautiful Christmas message! As I am thrilled to read the Good News at Luke 2:21-40. The biblical people in New Testament were finally to hear that the Messiah was born. Jesus said in John 14:9, Anyone who has seen me has seen the father. Jesus fully reveals God for everyone.

Jesus is a Light for the world. As God is glorious, excellence, beauty, greatness and perfection. And that Jesus brings glory in its truest and fullest sense. As John writes of Jesus in John 1:14b, “We have seen his glory, the glory of the one and only Son, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.” Jesus brings glory to Israel and to us, because Jesus is God coming to live among us.

Sadly, there are so many people who reject Jesus. We are so blessed to being so closely associated with Jesus. But sadly, I have a family member and my best friends (now former best friends) I really care about who are really not interested in Jesus. When we see our loved ones who reject Jesus we have a “sword” that will pierce our own souls. But the beautiful joy of seeing Jesus our Savior! We should seek to imitate Him in our own lives.

With that beautiful being said, I hope whoever seek a savior accept Jesus as their Savior. Have a good blessed week. Light and love 💖❤️, Loi

Psalm 34:18

Good mornin’, Readers! How was your week? Mine was extremely busy with cleaning the house and I had no one to help me. So, today I want to discuss about the scripture Psalm 34:18. It says:

In my difficult situation, I do not have anyone that validate my feelings. I am praying to free me from the pain and the sorrow of my situation. It’s not easy for when it comes to being patient with the cruelty. I just need peace in my life. Why do I have to have a broken heart on my life? I’m living in the world where there are so many people who are not perfect and they have to hurt my feelings. I hate that! I’m shouting out to the Lord! Lord, please deliver me from the cruelty. I don’t want to experience this difficult situation. Although I experienced this and still do. It’s such a sad truth.

Life is what you have to handle with the circumstances you live in. Broken heart is always there as you have lived and seen on the news. It’s not easy to forgive anyone who have wronged you. But to get healing, you have to move on.

With that being said, keep praying for the freedom of grace and joy. I hope you have a blessed Thursday. Light and love 💖❤️, Loi

How I Set a Love Boundary

Good evenin’, Readers! How was your Monday? Mine was some busy to do a homemaker task. I somewhat cleaned the living room, weekly meals planning, and cooking dinner for two and half hours. I also must help my unchristian sister as she always depends on me. Since she has two kids. It’s not easy for me to accept that I let her be my boss. I just need to move out with my son now, but she doesn’t want us to leave. So, I have to be patient with her. Geez. 

Today I need to write this blog post about setting a love boundary. Why would I need to blog it? It’s because I need to avoid hanging out with the people who don’t like me and use me for my sweet trait. No, I’m not letting them mess up with me. God gives me the beautiful commands. They are His love boundaries for life, given out of His love for me. His love boundaries are designed to give me freedom. Like to free myself from people who try to control me. My loving Father, He designed to ensure that I can have justice, peace and fullness of my life. 

I am reading Proverbs and it taught me to be a parent to my child. I am encouraging my son to follow God’s commands. God urges His children to keep His commands and live them. If my son keeps these commands, then they will make him a wise person and gain an intimate friend to Jesus. And they bring him insight to keep him out of trouble. I don’t want my son to get into trouble with the law and end up in jail. This is why I would like to set a love boundary for him to live and stay away from evil people. 

I keep my prayer journal. I am still praying for housing. I need to move to a new home with my son to keep away from my unchristian family. It’s tough for me to live like a hostage. It has been three years since I was forced to move out of my hometown to live with them. I didn’t expect that I would go to the wrong church that didn’t help me to get an apartment but to place me in a dangerous shelter. I was really piss off with them for allowing my family to drag me off my hometown. I am trying my best to remain calm and be in a relationship with my true God. As if I am astray from God, then my prayer will not be answered. But if God makes me wait, I am in good company. I love God, but I get to try to love my enemies. It’s hard for me to do what the Bible explains about loving the neighbors.  

I am thankful for Jesus died for me to forgive me. God loves me and does not want me to get hurt and mess up my life. That is why I need to follow His instruction manual, and it warns me of the dangers of living outside of His loving boundaries. For you, if you can follow His Word. God gives you every possible opportunity to repent. Despite rejecting Him, He remains in His faithfulness. As He is always ready to receive you back if you confess and humble yourselves.  

With that being said, Jesus summarizes the love commandments in Matthew 22:37–40, “Love the Lord your God… and… love your neighbor as yourself”. I hope you will have a lovely week and stay safe. Also, watch your surroundings. You don’t want to take the risk of ruining your life. Light and love 💖❤️, Loi